Am I a bad person?

Seriously i have been pulling my self apart on this lately. I finally got this girl to go on a date with me but she only told me yes right as she was leaving. I was supposed to pick her up but how could i? I had given her my family card earlier that day but it turned up in the hallway...so when she says yes i almost freak but give her my email. I waited and waited for her to send me an email; but none ever came so i took matters into my own hands. I searched high and low but could not find a scrap of info. The date passed and i am destroying my self and using all possible resources I can think of to get in contact and say sorry. To no avail; my parents said i did everything i could but did i? Did i blow my only chance am i a bad person? What will she say? Will i become an outcast for standing her up? Did i stand her up? All these swirling in my head. Am I a bad person?

Your fellow deviant who is pondering these questions,
Iceshadow3

P.S. Sorry i just had to find a way to let my thoughts out so i could move on somewhat...